Inspired by a blog post I was directed to on twitter today, I thought I would share with you what I love. But this is not your ordinary gratitude list. I am going to write to you about what I love about living with chronic pain and depression (among other things).
Yep, you heard me right. “What I love about living with chronic pain and depression.” What could there be to love you ask? Let me tell you . . .
I love the journey. I have been on this path to wellness for a long time, but the most challenging and revealing part of my journey did not begin until I developed Fibromyalgia. My journey is far from over. I can see a winding path ahead, over mountains, through thick vegetation, and across rapid waters . . . it won’t be easy. But on the other side of each challenge I will find myself a step closer to wellness and a life filled with peace. If I were not on this journey, I would miss the view from the top of the mountain, so I am thankful.
I love the connection. I am and have been connecting to people I never would have had the opportunity to meet if it were not for my illness and my life of chronic pain. I have met some people that amaze me completely with their strength and courage to face pain day after day, all the while keeping a positive attitude. I have met people facing adversity I never could imagine being able to handle and they handle it with grace. I have made life-long friendships, the kind of friendships that weather change, time, and distance, with people I have met through the internet (I truly never thought that a possibility in my life)! I continue to connect with other people who are suffering from similar challenges and I am inspired daily by them and inspired to continue sharing my story and what I am learning along the way. I am connecting with people all around the world, sharing stories, remedies and life. It is amazing and wonderful.
I love getting to know God. My relationship with God has become closer than ever before and continues to grow and strengthen with each day. I am coming to understand His faithfulness and love for us. I am beginning to grasp the concept of how truly magnificent and omnipresent He is, and I am awestruck. I don’t feel it every day or every moment, but I am feeling my connection to the Lord more than I could have imagined possible a few short years ago, and it is lovely.
I love me. Wow, that one is still hard to say. And I might even be “faking it ’til I make it” a bit here, but I do love getting to know me better. I have gone through some horrific times, but through it all, I am getting to know myself better. I am seeing some beauty underneath the veil of pain. I may not be the “ideal woman” but I am wonderfully made and I do have gifts to offer the world, gifts I never knew I had before my journey with Fibromyalgia began.
Certainly there is more to add to this list, but I think I have exposed enough to display that there are some pretty incredible gifts that have been offered to me as a result of my new life of living with chronic pain and illness. Some of these gifts I have to purposefully choose to accept. That isn’t always so easy, but since I am on a path to wellness, I continue to do my best and choose the right thing as often as possible. I hope you are able to identify some of what you love in the midst of the challenges you might be facing right now. As a good friend said to me last night, “as long as you can see the good that might come from your circumstances, you will come out on the other side alright”.