I find it so wonderfully amazing how we all really do need each other. If we are left to ourselves, our own devices, our own thought processes for too long we get stuck. At least, this is what happens to me.
I am grateful beyond words for a shift that began in me in May of 2009 (BreakThrough) and it continues to be working in my life. I continue to fall and get back up as I adjust and open my eyes to the process. I am without words when I think of the gratitude that I have for my very own brother who urged me to begin this process and for his continued assistance along the way. I am blown away by the potential life has for me! (Did I really just say that?) I am very much still learning to awaken to the the possibilities, to my new life “living loved and loving life”.
You know what I am discovering? (with help)
I don’t have to live life defined by my pain.
It may seem simple. It may be a no-brainer to you, but this realization carries more weight than gold in it for me. I am beginning to understand that the way in which I identify with my pain and my diagnosis, although it gives me a great sense of belonging and also purpose in many ways, is keeping me from embracing my true identity. My true sense of value and worth comes not from my challenges or my pain, but from just being me!
The questions that I am left with are “Who am I if I am not defined by my illnesses? Who am I if I am not someone living with chronic pain, fibromyalgia, ptsd, depression, anxiety, etc?” I may still be struggling with these challenges, but they are not who I am. These things are not where I need to seek out and find my value.
My value is intrinsic. My value is inherent. I am loved. I am lovable. I am valuable, just for being, as are you.
I am. You are. We are.
I feel things shifting.