I find myself approaching life in a more solitary kind of way these days. My focus is certainly on more than myself, my kids are at the heart of everything I do, as I am also watching out for my health and well-being. But rather than being metaphorically alone… I am alone (at least without adult accompaniment), a lot more often than I used to be.
It’s been at least a month now that I have slept in my own bed with an empty space by my side. At least, that is how I go to sleep, often I awake with a certain 5-year-old snuggled up beside me. It is a strange feeling when I turn out the light at night and hear silence.
Being alone can be an experience of isolation, loneliness and heartbreak and it can also be a time of reflection, adjustment and relaxation. Finding myself alone in this new way is sometimes scary and sometimes not. Being alone is not always a foreshadowing of sadness, but it can be for many, in a variety of circumstances.
I so look forward to visits from a friend that lives near by, even if it is just a few minutes or a shared cup of tea. It has become such a big reassurance to me that I am not alone in this world. And, of course, the reminder that I am never truly alone in life, that comfort that my faith gives me, is incredibly important, too. I find great consolation in the online communities in which I participate. A short message, a tweet, or a comment can really bring such a big sense of relief from isolation.
Where do you find respite from loneliness? Do you find yourself facing “alone in a different way” these days? Is it because of illness or some other circumstance? What helps you cope?
*This is my entry for WEGO Health HAWMC Day 13. Please feel free to join me in this writing challenge! Most of my posts have been published on my WEGO Health blog, but I am occasionally writing some of the posts here.